Some Days Are Rougher Than Others

One thing I’ve been trying to do lately is figure out when and with whom I indulge more when it comes to food. For instance, do I indulge more when I’m with my boyfriend or with my girlfriends? Do I indulge more when I’m stressed out or really happy with how things are going in order to celebrate? I think it’s important to isolate when I normally fall off the wagon in order to try and correct it down the road.

This week has proven to be more difficult for me. Monday was a good day as was Tuesday until roughly 4pm. After 4pm, my week seemed to take a bit of a downward spiral. I was stood up and used by someone I hoped was still a close friend, I worked my first exhausting 9 hour shift with 4-12 year old children on Wednesday, and Thursday still held stress from the previous two days without being able to have time to process and decompress. I can now see that I’m an emotional eater when I feel overwhelmed and stressed out. However, I’m not nearly as bad as I use to be. My ‘cheats’ have been a slice of bread last night with dinner and a piece of cake today when people were celebrating a Birthday (because I was still in the ‘I don’t give a shit mood). These are things I’m trying to live with rather then beat myself up about. I get off work tomorrow at 3:30PM and plan to go to the gym in the evening. I plan on getting right back up again even though I just took two steps backwards in my journey forwards.

I just wanted to get it all out in writing so I can be accountable for everything. I want this blog to be an outlet that I can use to process the good, the bad, and the ugly. This wasn’t a huge binge or mistake but it was a learning curve. When I’m stressed out, upset, and overwhelmed, I like to indulge more in carbs and food. What kind of outlet can I turn to next time? Maybe I can go for a walk or a skip? Maybe a drive would even help. These are things that I have to look into next time my emotions are running high.

You don’t get your ‘dream body’ by eating properly for two days. You also don’t gain all the weight you have lost back when you fall down for a day or two. It’s just a matter of getting back up and pushing through.

I hope through this journey I can find a better way to deal with stressful situations. I’ll keep you updated when I find something that works for me now that I have acknowledged this. 


Productive Beach Day (No, Seriously)

I’m quite pleased and happy with myself to day. You heard it, I had a productive beach day! Today I went to the Sunshine Coast with 13 other residence in which I had to drive a big 15 seat vehicle. The drive was smooth the way down (Shockingly enough) but temptation started as soon as I parked the vehicle.

The kitchen staff from our residence prepared two eskes filled with chocolate bards, chocolate donuts, poppers, and (thank goodness) some apples. Everyone dove for the chocolate but I resisted, politely declined, and grabbed an apple. At lunch all that was available was hot dogs, fish and chips, and burgers. I opted for a grilled chicken burger (only ate the bottom bun with no condiments on it) and a side salad. Lastly, to simply treat everyone, the college paid for everyone to have a sunday or McFlurry from Maccas on the way home. As everyone ordered their hot fudge sundays or kit kat McFlurrys I simply ordered a bottle of water to hydrate more. Am I proud? Just a bit. But the best part is that all that stuff wasn’t even tempting. I didn’t want it or feel like I was missing out.

We were gone from 9am-5:00PM. You know how the sun drains you and by the time you get home you just want to crash? Well I planned for this to be my day off from exercise but I felt as though I was still able to handle going for a run. Tony and I switched our swimmers and thongs for a pair of runners and gym clothes and did the same running path we took two nights prior. The best part? Although it was hot and I felt as if I was going to vomit and die at one point, we were able to shave off our time by a minute in a half. It’s not hugely impressive, but it’s awesome considering we hadn’t planned to do a work out at all.

Anyways, I’m just happy and feeling good. It pays off to push yourself and do some exercise even on a lazy ‘beach bum’ day, you know?